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Big white bundle

1 Corinthians 3:12,13” Now if any man builds on the foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, 13 each man’s work will become evident; for the day will show it because it is to be revealed with fire…”

It was my last day after three days of ministry in that city, I was preaching in the morning service in a particular church after which I was going straight to the station.  It was time for offering and all I had in my handbag was a five hundred rupee note, I was swiftly looking for any other cash but that was all I had, nothing else.  I had to take a cab to the railway station so I needed that money; however, I picked up that five hundred rupee note from my bag and put it in the offering bag.  I lifted my hands (now that I was empty, I could lift up my hands higher ) and worshipped the Lord and got ready to preach.  It was a simple church in one of the southern districts of Tamil Nadu, as I finished praying for the congregation, the pastor came to see me and put a ‘big white bundle’ into my hands; it was too heavy and I was unable to carry it, he said, ‘ we decided to give the entire offering collection that we received today to you.’  My five hundred rupee note was also inside it!

Give all you have to God, not tomorrow but today! Give, and it will be given to you. “A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” (Luke 6:38)  Read 1 Corinthians 3 given above, before I delve into the message, it’s just three lines, don’t skip it, you will miss the gold.  Are you listening?  We have time to sit for 3 hours movie and half hour TV drama, but seldom sit to read His Word, well, the scripture says, ‘at the end of our life, God would filter all our works, our earnings, our efforts, our running around, our busy agendas, all the thousand educational degrees and what not, and only the things pertaining to godliness would be retained.  You can have thousand things in your upper shelf gathering dust in your house, properties and everything but what you have done and given for God is what remains in the end, everything else is just wood, hay and straw!

Have you blessed the work of God with your offerings?  Some procrastinate because it takes long to do an online transaction, others are lazy to write a cheque, the rest are least bothered. I speak to the one who is stirred in your heart to bless my ministry, do it today, the needs are enormous.  Click OFFERING for details, you can also do a PAYTM transfer to our mobile 9573207753, after which do not forget to give your name and address.

God bless you.


Why has the LORD defeated us?

No mango Jelly this…..


1 Samuel 4:3”the elders of Israel said, “Why has the LORD defeated us today before the Philistines?”


Now, I gave a funky title so that you guys open and read it out of curiosity! Period.  This is a serious topic but let me open with a comedy though, this happened a few years back, I went to visit a very close family of ours; however, the lady of that house had to go out on an important work, so I pitched in to cook for the family that day.  She had actually cooked the dhal so I entered the kitchen to make the traditional south Indian ‘sambar’.  My sambar receives raving reports so I very proudly went about making it with super confidence, at the end, the color of the sambar was different, it did not have that goldish look.  The family ate it quietly – no comments though, I left confused.  For a long time, I wondered why didn’t that family give me ‘sabash’ report?  Finally when I was casually talking to that woman one day, she said, ‘I boiled only plain dhal, I did not add anything else’ – I got a shock.  Ah! So, I had actually made the sambar that day without tomatoes! Now everything became clear, I presumed that the dhal was cooked with tomatoes and garlic which I normally do, no wonder the sambar tasted weird!  I pitied the family who quietly ate the sambar mixed rice.


Coming back to our anchor scripture that we are meditating, the elders of Israel wondered “Why has the LORD defeated us today before the Philistines?”, but the truth of the matter is they were responsible for the chaotic situation of Israel!  My conundrum is: why did they not get it, get it, get it……..? The House of God was neglected, Bible was ignored, adultery happened inside the church, offerings were being looted, Leader was casually napping – so can the leaders now deny their lackadaisical role in the deterioration and devastation of the church? NEVER.  Squarely every leader was/is responsible and accountable to God!


  • Why did I lose my job, where is God ask many Christians, my question is, did you tithe, did you read the Word, did you pray….. ?
  • Why did my marriage fail, why did God allow it? ask some Christians, my question is, did you have family prayer?
  • My child is on drugs and alcohol, why did this happen ask Christian parents, my question is, did you teach him the Bible, send him to Sunday class and were you role model for him?


When things go wrong instead of blaming God, why not turn the focus on us and search our hearts for iniquities?

If the date of salvation is already fixed by God, then why should I pray hard?

If the date of salvation is already fixed by God, then why should I pray hard?


Genesis 18:32 Then he said, “Oh may the Lord not be angry, and I shall speak only this once; suppose ten are found there?” And He said, “I will not destroy it on account of the ten.”

I write this on a day of fasting and prayer, because the fire of God’s anointing is needed to percolate into the hearts of the people and bring understanding.  Stay tuned to His voice now.  The deception of the devil is to keep you away from God but my desire is to see you and your family saved. Amen.  It has taken me  more than 3 to 4 hours to write this devotion, after intense Bible study, which you would be reading in five minutes; however, I am determined in my commitment to expound the Gospel.


Someone told me, ‘Bala, we got to patiently wait, because only in God’s time the person will be saved.” Ah! I felt this got to be explained otherwise the devil is going to keep people lethargic and irresponsible in this very important subject of salvation. Salvation isn’t  magic, we got to be patient I agree, but not lazy in praying, so much so, when you slow down your intensity in praying, the devil grabs the person through calamities.   Suicides, heart attacks and accidents can overtake, if you are not intense in your prayer, do not take God for granted.  The devil twists the words of God and thereby today we have umpteen false doctrines; however, if you are a humble person reading the Word of God with a pure mind, God would surely reveal the truth to you.  I would give few incidents from the Bible and explain this to you:



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In Genesis 18, we see Abraham boldly stand in front of God and plead on behalf of Sodom and Gomorrah, he prayed, ‘will you save the cities for the sake of the fifty righteous who are in it?’ and then slowly brings the number down to 10, God agrees to his request. This is the power of intercession prayer, but alas, not even 10 righteous are found in Sodom and Gomorrah, and the cities were destroyed.  When you pray God listens!  The idea, ‘God is anyway going to save the person only in His time’, takes the onus away from intense praying, wrestling in prayer for the unsaved person, intense fasting and also thereby takes away the guilt of prayerlessness.  Spiritual lethargy finds excuses to take the tough route!  (Make a note of this statement and keep it in your bedroom, so that you wake up at 5 am in the morning and pray for your loved ones without fishing for excuses.) Be warned today, when you don’t pray enough and make changes in your life too then some souls will not be saved and deliverances may not take place. PRAYER, PRAYER…PRAYER  is the answer…..


Numbers 16 in the Bible gives us an account of God’s wrath and how ‘ONLY’ prayer can change a situation.  Even after the bunch of Korah group were swallowed in earth quake, even after they witnessed first-hand the results of rebellion; yet, the Israelites murmured, verse 41 ‘But on the next day all the congregation of the sons of Israel grumbled against Moses and Aaron….” OMG! Can people be so hardhearted and brash to talk against the servants of God after witnessing such catastrophes?  When they did that, God commanded Moses and Aaron to get away so that He could kill them, but Moses tells Aaron, “Take your censer and put in it fire from the altar, and lay incense on it; then bring it quickly to the congregation and make atonement for them, for wrath has gone forth from the LORD, the plague has begun!”  This part is crucial, hear me:


Numbers 16:47”Aaon ran into the midst of the assembly, for behold, the plague had (already)begun among the people…” (so, any slowing down on your part is going to affect the sinners..)  Listen to this, the plague stopped after Aaron prayed; nonetheless, 14,700 had already died.  I remember an incident, I preached exactly the same message with passion and tears rolling down my cheek in one of our FIRE CAMPS; at the end of the message, we received a call from the family of one of the participants saying, ‘her father committed suicide by consuming poison.’ Pray fervently for the lost ones, don’t delay !


Yes, only after Hannah got up from her seat of complacency and prayed intensely and forcefully, was she able to conceive Samuel.  Are you hearing me?  Flippant, nonchalant, powerless prayer achieves nothing, remember when your situation is grim and serious, you got to pray more and press more. Can I remind you of the prayer of Jesus at Gethsemane, “And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.”(Luke 22:44)


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There is power in the Word of God, so they got to hear the Gospel, I remember leaving my children with my husband to take them to church, while I waited in my friend’s place to take her entire family to church, the travel to the church was not pleasant though, everything possible happened to stop us, there were hassles in parking the car also, we made it anyway.    Many miracles happened in that family after that, someone has to make a sacrifice and take an effort.  It’s the Word of God that brings faith for salvation: “Faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God” (Romans 10:17)  “How then will they call on Him in whom they have not believed,,” Rom 10:14




James 5:16 “Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much.”  So, we understand that there are rewards when we walk righteously, despite the loss and sufferings that goes with it.  God hears their prayer!  We cannot remain dishonest, unreliable and wicked and expect our prayers for the salvation of our loved ones to be heard, is anyone understanding please?  You can get saved but still gossip, get angry, fight, smoke, drink, be vengeful, merciless, create confusion,  slow to forgive and much more; so be fruitful for effective answers for prayers.



Why not be wronged?

Why not be cheated?suffer wrong


1 Corinthians 6:7”…….Why not rather be wronged? Why not rather be defrauded?


Observe Paul’s tone, he is annoyed and angry at believers running around to people to solve their problems.  Each time I get to this scripture, I have never stopped feeling nonplussed and startled at the high expectations of God from us!  In my experience, I have watched Bible-reading, born-again, big-talk Christian families run to the police station, courts and relatives to solve silly family disputes.  They trust police stations and courts more than church and the leadership of the church, anybody listening?  Sadly, most of the them are highly educated people too,  but do not have Bible  knowledge though, which is exactly the reason why they run the opposite direction and blasphemy the name of the Lord.  Police stations and courts are not wrong places; however, what the Bible emphasizes is that solve them yourself or endure, rather than run around for silly matters.


Someone has taken your parking space, damaged your car inadvertently, the neighbor and his ten dogs disturb you miserably, arrogantly someone parks his car right in front of your gate, noise, dirt, disturbance, property disputes and million other things irritate us every day, but the Bible tells us to suffer wrong and not make a great scene when cheated.  Anybody listening?  Is it possible to remain silent when you are affected?  I guess, none of us can do this on our own, but we can do this through Jesus Christ who gives us the strength.  When Abide School moved into the new rented building (we stay now), initially the unruly boys of that locality started throwing stones inside our school, the teachers and the children got very scared, we spoke to the parents and also rebuked the boys but the problems got worse than stop, now along with my husband, I started praying for the neighbors and good relationship between us every day, we went around the school daily and  prayed.  After about a year, (note, it didn’t happen immediately) the family that stayed opposite our school and created the most racket, approached me two weeks back and donated rice and dhal for the students.  Glory to Jesus! Jesus can reverse the situation when you pray, do you hear me?


Let me tell you something, surrounded by idol worship and secular people who have no clue about our God and the Bible, are looking at us and our life!  Caution!  Your kindness, gentleness, compassion, long-suffering and patience should impact them and bring them to Christ!





Sit with Goddeer


Habakkuk 3:19”The Lord GOD is my strength, And He has made my feet like hinds’ feet, And makes me walk on my high places.”


My experience:


Can a scripture keep you so enthralled that you could think of nothing else?  Yeah, get to the end of this article then you would comprehend the power behind God’s Word.  Well, God sent this scripture to me almost like a ‘wrapped up gift’, at a time when things were unimaginably tough and knotty, as a family we were praying for God to intervene and bring us a breakthrough, during this time, I read this scripture: ‘He would make my feet like hinds’ feet and I would walk on high places!’


The words that captivated me much were the ‘high place!’  Normally we would get lot of ‘Amens’ for this promise because people attribute high places to materialistic blessings like car, promotion, foreign assignment, new job etc; however, walking in high places means that you would walk with God in the place where He dwells. This thought gives me goosebumps‘ , how about you? If you’re not excited about being with God, then the rest of the portion would bore you stiff; nevertheless, if you are the one who would love to get deeper with God then you proceed.  You may wonder, ‘why is Bala getting so crazy about this verse, it doesn’t promise any goodies though?’  Well, if you know my journey then you would understand the reason behind my joy.


On one single day I had to deal with students bashing each other, three girls of the same family who joined Angel Home were creating problems because the father wanted the children back, besides this, administration, financial and various other problems choked me. I came home tensed, did not utter a word but inside I was pleading the Lord, ‘this is too much Lord.’  My feet were shaking and I felt……….wobbly…shabby…..unsteady………

It is now that I read ‘I will strengthen you and make your feet like a deer and make you walk in high places.’   The word ‘high’ means elevation or height in Hebrew and above the sky or heavenly in Greek, therefore, the ‘high place’ means the heavenly realm.  Deer is able to scale treacherous tough terrains and elude predators. Deer’s legs are even able to jump on hard and sharp rocks to get to the top of the hill, a place where the deer will be in a much safer situation.  Likewise, God strengthens us to flee from demons, problems, sickness, loneliness, strife, envy, betrayals, mockery, criticisms and get to the high place with God, where you feel secure.


You know what, at a time when the nation was in a bad shape, Habakkuk was able to say: 17 Though the fig tree should not blossom And there be no fruit on the vines, ….Yet I will exult in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.”   You can make such statements only when you sit in the high place, anybody listening?  Someone asked me – very close to me – ‘from where do you think you would get the money to purchase the school building?’  I said, ‘from above’, they said, ‘stop being arrogant.’  What?  This is what you would be labeled when you answer from the ‘HIGH PLACE!’  Hurray!  Not many can stay here, because you got to battle with demons.


When you reach this HIGH PLACE,  your struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places.  Did you read this? So put on the full armour of God if you desire to come to the high place, you cannot browse facebook and whatsup for 24 hours and come here.




In order to get to this high place, we got to leave the earthly stuff, the best scripture I could think of is from James chapter 3:

14   But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your heart, do not be arrogant and so lie against the truth.

15   This wisdom is not that which comes down from above, but is earthly, natural, demonic.

16   For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder and every evil thing.

17   But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.


Did you get that?


Stop even talking to people who are namby-pamby,  who have the smell of gossip, bad mouth and evil thoughts, this would rub off on you and spoil your vision.  Stay connected with God.  I am battling with demons as I write this portion.  But let me tell you the lovely things that happen when you close your door and spend quiet time with God, the sky opened for Peter when he went up on the housetop about the sixth hour to pray. (Acts 10:10)  Are you content with a fleeting five-minutes prayer or would you like to climb up to the high place and live a heavenly life?





Our pain has a purpose

You came like an angel

Genesis 45:5″Now do not be grieved or angry with yourselves, because you sold me here, for God sent me before you to preserve life.”

Mother of four little children stood by the gate last year during the time of admission and requested me, ‘can you take my children in your school?’ There were many people around me with fake salutes, cunning, flattery language, phony respect and sly smile but she was devoid of such craftiness, but instead was very nervous when she approached me. Her fourth boy was below four years old, so I took all the three of her kids who were in the age group of 7,6 and 5; all I knew about them was their father left them. However, I had a very tough time of grooming them for nearly a year, in fact, on one particular day, I met the mother at the gate and said, ‘I just cannot manage them, they are very unruly’, with tears she begged me to discipline them. God strengthened me, within 6 months, the children transformed after hearing the Word of God in the assembly and their academic performance also improved and they are not average but scored top marks. Glory to Jesus! Her grandmother one day met me and said, ‘God sent you like an angel into our life, if not the lives of my grandchildren would have been ruined.’ (Below are the three kids)monica akshara


I shivered as I heard those words because when ‘God sent me’, MARK the words, ‘God sent me’, to Hyderabad, the journey was not pleasant or convenient, in fact, we ran short of money for the transport and we had to sell certain items to make up for it, while the goods were sent in the lorry, I traveled in the train on the same day with my maid and son alone, because my husband and daughter had to stay back and finish some work. Since there was a marriage party traveling in our compartment, we did not get a wink of sleep, not a pleasant journey at all. When we reached Hyderabad, we had no garlands or friends to received us, we were escorted by a believer who did not even help us with our luggage (our training started there in the railway platform itself) All these struggles are frivolous compared to the way God is using us now to build the lives of little children in Hyderabad through our ABIDE SCHOOL  and our Church.


Coming to the scripture, Joseph looked at his brother after 22 years and said, ‘God sent me to preserve life’, did you hear that? He was emotionally broken, hurt, betrayed, abandoned, no words to cohesively put his emotions together; nevertheless, he states, ‘my pain had a purpose!’ Stop running away from struggles, but gain strength from your struggles and live for a greater purpose than just burgers.

Dropped like a hot potato….rejection 3

 1 Peter 2:4”And coming to Him as to a living stone which has been rejected by men, but is choice and precious in the sight of God..”


Hey, before my experience with Jesus and salvation, I thought I need power from God to fight the devils at midnight, that bring bad dreams, that scare me and frighten to kill me but Oh after I met Jesus and started developing an intimate relationship with Him, I understood I need mighty power from God to stand the rejection, dejection and mockery from my own friends and family circle.  Do you know how ignorance feels? I guess that’s the worst pain imaginable. You can take it when the enemy spits on you but not when the person you love looks the other side, gosh the weight is too much!  How does it feel in a group when every other word gets response but your statement is ignored and unheeded?


I vividly remember a day – as though  it happened yesterday – when one of my colleague crossed my cubicle at work, I looked up anxiously for a ‘hi and smile’ but she walked pass  my desk as though I didn’t exist, I was treated like a chair and desk,  but gave a broad smile and a high-five for the person sitting next to my desk.  I sat flummoxed! I could hear giggles and jokes being exchanged all around me but I was totally ignored! Why? Why?  There are lot of people who were with me during that journey of my life reading my devotions today, I guess the pain and agony were for the very purpose for me to become a ‘pen’ in the hands of my God. I could never talk about ‘pain’ if I had not tasted it. Anybody listening?


After being royally ditched and discarded at my work spot and living like a hermit on the fourth floor of the plush multinational bank building, I walked out with a sigh when God called me to join as His full-time servant, least did I know GREATER pain awaits me out there! When I resigned, I was a mother of two children with a great responsibility on my shoulders; however, nobody were ready to accept us.   I enthusiastically jumped and told my pastor, ‘I am good with the youth’ but I was not even given a youth class, local prayer cells ignored us, NONE I repeat NONE acknowledged or accepted us.  Bad phase! But this period in my life, brought me closer and closer to God, I had none but HIM.  Children education, health issues, financial commitments and a lot more other stuff were choking us too.  Do you think I drowned in this sea, never, I came out STRONGER AND BOLDER!


Today, we have multiple projects and we have launched out into the arena of education and started our OWN SCHOOL, free for the poor children and also free SHELTER for the poor too.  (Click HERE to view details of our ministries)


Before you say ‘YES’

Before you say ‘YES’


Colossians 3:23-24 “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.”


Before you say ‘YES’ to anything, also consider the responsibility, hard work, commitment, diligence, persistence and carefulness that has to go with that work.  If you are planning to get married, just don’t only plan your honeymoon, beauty parlor, marriage hall and photographer, most important is to learn to be a good husband and wife.  Event management people cannot teach you to have a successful marriage which comes only through sacrifice and compromise.  Are you listening?  You can throw stones at me for writing this…..go ahead, you are living in a mirage if you don’t know this.


Behind the cute pics of our Abide School and Abide Angel Home, IMG-20170226-WA0029y1486124307698You don’t get to see the acute pain and struggles of running the show.  We need minimum 100 bags (25 Kg) of rice, dhal, tamarind, chilly and a lot more; however, though we do not have regular donars, yet the kitchen keeps functioning.  One particular season, the inflow of funds went dry and as a family while we were discussing, we felt ‘why not just give them everything else free and ask them to bring their tiffin box’; but the Holy Spirit corrected us and asked us to trust Him.  Just around that time, we were enticed with 6 bags of rice which were ration shop rice for cheap rate, but we refused to go the unrighteous way and kept trusting God for our provisions.  The devil pokes his dirty nose at a vulnerable time, but do not lose hope, trust God and in His mighty power.  I also introduced the S4 feeding program promowhich is inviting people to sponsor for one meal on special occasions; well, God has been guiding us by His grace.


While I travel these days, I carry old clothes, shoes, bags, or whatever I feel is useful for our Home children and also rice, dhal and other ingredients.  Friend, we got to shed some of our dignity if we have to shoulder the responsibility given to us by God.  Are you listening?  Many of my friends and relatives ask me, ‘your school children do not look like they are from poor background and some from the slums’, my answer – “we teach them not only to study but also to oil and comb the hair, polish the shoes, keep the uniforms clean, maintain the books and school bags, carry pencil box with necessary items, wash their hands before eating, housekeeping of class rooms and much more.  Excel in whatever you do!